Thursday, December 17, 2009

Mount Nelson Villa 6

Haha... Without knowing, it's already one and half year i have stay in this "house"... This has been my 2nd so called home after my home back in Penang. I don't know why, but i think after living here for sometimes now, and i don't feel like moving other place although other place is so much better. This is my last day in this house anymore, and i think i wont able to sleep or play in this house anymore... I felt sad that I am leaving... but nevertheless, every beginning has its ending, everyone knows that, and i must well accepted the fact.

This particular house, named Mount Nelson Villa 6 is an accomodation offered by the Accomodation office of UTAS. When we first came to our place, we were horrified, terrified... because it's quite far from the uni and you need to cross 7 hairpin corners like the one in Initial D where there are only 5 in there and we have 7 in our Mount Nelson. But, after staying for sometimes, we soon settled down and then we never really thought of moving out. And yes, of course, 5 of us are staying together... Me, CheeSen, SinHoong,Taki and TzeHau... All from our Inti Diploma course. haha. As we continue staying here for 1.5 years, the house did bring us alot of funs and happy memories. We have held endless birthday parties, parties... games night, drinking night... and sooooo many more. Maybe it is because 5 of us stayed here together.

Last year our group of Mount Nelson contains 5 of us, and Zin Fang, Phoebe, Chow and Nesh. We did have a very very nice time then. But this year, all of them moved to uni apartments, which is much better place than here, but 5 of us still stayed over here, and then we got Evo, who is new to the Uni this year, moved in to Mount Nelson Villa 2. He did had alot of fun with us, although there are only 6 of us, but the happy times is like 95%. No matter what we do, all we know is enjoy and happy. Whether we are playing games, eating dinner together, buying groceries and so on... We did alot of fun in this house. Really so appreciate the time... Hope i can turn back time. After that, our group grew bigger even without ppl moving in to the Mount Nelson Villas, soon we had like more than 10 people having party in our house. It's again very happy memories. And I was most of the time considered as the host of the house as I always talk and entertain any guest who came to our house. And maybe because of this I had this feeling that I have a bond with the house. And finally, today is the last day i am going to be here. I have a quite complicated feeling now as I am leaving today, whether I will leave as happy as this back in Penang with my family? Or is it because of my friends that i became so happy in life over here. But if either of them is correct or wrong it still wont' change the fact that I am leaving today. It's hard to decribe the feeling now. It felt so wrong and yet i have to accept that this is life.

Although Taki have moved out with his gf since November, our spirit is still very much still alive in Mount Nelson Villa, but after today, both CheeSen and Sin Hoong is leaving at 22nd. And Tze Hau will leave on that day too... And so... our most beautiful memories of Uni life in UTAS is going to end. all the memories that we have had in this house... will forever in my mind... Thanks housemates, thanks friends... All the best~

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Graduating.. Leaving..

Time flies, isn't it... Without knowing, me and my fellow friends had already stay here for one and half years already. And now, it's already the end of our bachelor. Better still is that my graduation is on 16th Dec which is a Wednesday. Times really flies too fast, and finally all of us is gonna get all our degree together and graduating together. Something that we are gonna celebrate. Haha.

But one thing I had in mind for the past few days after waking up is that "How did I managed to get through all this times?", "How did I overcome one obstacles after another?", "What did I really do this whole year?". In fact, after thinking for awhile, me together with my friends really did get through alot of things together. And that will always in our memories together. Maybe that is what University Life is all about. All the time me and my friend speaking about failing a subjects before exams are now all over, but maybe they will take another masters but this is already enough for me. After studying for almost 5 years, i think it should be time for me to stop studying and earning money after i finally graduated. Haha.

Talk about graduation, we went for our friend's graduation and then we had alot of fun time there. But i am abit sad with one thing, but nevertheless i understand and already overcome that sad feeling. That feeling is that all of our parents are not coming to graduation, including my housemates, which is all my friend. So, we will participate the graduation all together. Graduation is really my biggest achievement so far and this is gonna my biggest day of my life. Thanks for everyone that already wished me and thanks for people that gonna wish me. Haha. I am gonna to enjoy the graduation as much as possible.

In matter of fact, I am gonna leave one day of the graduation makes me want to enjoy more than any other things. The feeling of leaving and never coming back is really a bad feeling. Maybe we can grow mature after enduring and overcoming this feeling. We all know that every beginning has it's ending, but how many will understand the feeling. This feeling is bugging me for few weeks, but nevertheless i am quite excited to go back to Penang, Malaysia as there are alot of fun, family, friends waiting for me. But i have already stayed here for more that one year, of course i will have feelings to this place as well. Maybe the feeling is i have towards all my friend over here that maybe i not gonna see them again? Maybe? Maybe it's the feeling that i have to leave this peaceful place that i had stayed for so long and not coming back anymore? Maybe? I don't know... I have only 2 days left over here before I depart from Tasmania and then back to Penang. I sincerely hope that everything will goes well for me as I haven't sought out my future yet. But anyway, for the times i had being here, I will forever remember it and it will be the memories of my life. And i will enjoy the graduation as much as possible. Haha.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Everyone's Leaving..

I have apologize to all again to all... Sorry... In the past 2 months.. which is October and November, it is the most important and also the most miserable few months for me... So much things has happened before this. In earlier i was so busy with my assignment and projects that I only had like 24-25 hours of sleep in whole week only. After that, i had to work on the exams. And during exam times that is the most miserable time for me. What can i say bout that? One problems add to another problems and then few more came along... I was also in the state of dillema during that period. And oh yea... the best thing that happened to me in those time is that i had a bunch of very very close and good friends held a surprise birthday for me. I was so touched by their actions. It certainly cheered me up alot. But still problems are problems and i still have to solved it myself. In return, i am so happy that i had a few good friends that are willing to hear to my trouble and then cared for me. This friends are already hard to come by. Thanks, i think u know who you are. Haha. For all the hard times we had together. Thanks.

It's really a blessing that I found out that i really knew a bunch of really nice friends, some is my housemates and some is new friend that i just knew this last semester. It's hard to imagine really, with one semester of knowing each other, our relation or to be specific, my relationship with them really grows so fast that as though we have know for a very long time. But while i am writing this post. Everyone of them has already left. The day everyone left, i will surely think of them and also think of the memories that i have shared together with them. It's fun to spend large part of my time playing around, joking, playing with them. I have no regrets knowing anyone of them. But too bad that they wont need to wait for graduation as I need to wait for it. But, by seeing one by one of them leaving certainly me very very much. I hoped that i am the one who are going back too. But if i am going back, will there be anyone think as much as i thought of them. People might say i am stupid, but i think i have farely too much sentimental feeling towards a friend. I never want to say goodbye to anyone, but all this friends here have gone through thick and thin together with me, so it's even harder.

Firstly, it Fiona who is leaving back to Vietnam, for holiday but she will be returning soon. When she's not around, i have no one to listen to me. She has been supporting me alot when i was having trouble. I certainly miss her alot. But after i complete my graduation, i will have to go back and i will have endure this again as she is returning soon. Can't wait to see her. Secondly, is my good friend and partner in everything, Chow. Omg! Without him, i wouldn't be what i am today. Although he's younger, but he certainly teached me lot of stuff. Sorry that we always bullied you, but still Man Utd is better than Chelsea (LOL). He's the one that we always go out together with, watch movie, casino and also watching football. Glad that i knew this guy as he is also a good listener. I won't be able to see him again next year, only time to meet is back in Malaysia. But the environment is already sooo different. I just hope i could stay like this forever, where whole group of friends could stay and hang out forever. But reality and life is cruel, this will never happens and i have to overcome this.

Thirdly, it's Kenneth. He is the most similar man to me that i ever meet. We always had the same thinking, but he's fairly smarter as he studied biotech. And the only thing that is different between us is that he has a girl friend and i don't. We knew each other only this semester when taking the Enterpreneurship and Creativity's subject. We certainly shared all those good and nice time together. I surely appreciate it for always. Thinking of videos and slides are always what we both have same in common. But he left earlier than me. So good luck Kenneth, hope to see u back in Malaysia and also with Jo Yee.

Fourth to leave is surely my best mates and brother, Benjamin. He is the most caring, best, sporting friend i ever found. Even words arent able to describe him. You should know him for yourself. He is someone that is always there for me, whether good or bad. He adviced me when i had dillema, He play CS with me when i am boring, he talk to me when i am emo, he partner with me nicely in badminton, and on the other way round, i am the same to him as well. I will never let him down. We have shared good and bad memories in here, but forever you'll be my good mates. Hopefully we will meet again in the future where we can help each other out again.

Fifthly, it's the most reliable and happy friend i ever meet, EVO. Yeah his name is Evo, don't ask me why or how? I think he is the perfect example that i shall follow in life. He is always happy even though he is in trouble. He has stayed together with us for already 1 year and i haven't really finished learning from him. Although he is younger than me, his knowledge generally is better than me alot. He never disappointed me whenever i have called him to do something for me. I certainly hope that i will meet him again in the future. He can achieve alot more than he thinks. We also did shared all the hard and good time together. Me and him are always the crowd cheered and when people are out of topics, we are there. And yea.. Evo is also a great poker player. I learnt alot from him. All the best when i am not around next year.

Next, after i came back from holiday, it's ZinFang and Phoebe that is leaving. Both of them we had known each other since 1 and half years ago. We started Utas university life together in the same place. We certainly had much fun before, playing Monopoly every night and also joking around. ZinFang is always the leader of our trip wherever we are going. He's experienced and also smart enough. Haha. Although both of them are graduating too, but there are not waiting for the ceremony. So they went back earlier, left us a few around. It's hard to see all of them go away for a moment. As i thought of the time we spent together, I don't think there will any kind of these time anymore in the future. All the best to them.

Lastly without speaking it's my good friend/sister, Fern. She's leaving back to Malaysia today as i am writing this post. I just woke up to send her to the car to the airport. She is another friend that i knew in the start of this semester, our relationship certainly developed very fast. I really don't know how to explain bout it, but i will miss all the time i had with her. She is another great listener of me. When i am having bad times, she talked to me to cheer me. Same goes to her, but i don't think i managed to cheer her. We certainly have had alot of good times but we also have bad times as well. I hope that she will live a good life ahead and less trouble for her. Hope to see you back soon in Malaysia.

After sending her, i can't sleep anymore, which led me to write this post. Did i miss her, or did i miss everyone or i am missing the time where everyone had their happy time together. I am not sure. But one thing I am sure is that I will miss the happy time we all had together. I am lucky that i really enjoy the time when we had all the function. I will have no regret. I will just hope that, they will remember me in the future, as a good friend. All The Best friends, although we might never meet again, but i certainly hope that each of us will keep in contact till i planned some function back in Malaysia. Thanks.

Monday, October 5, 2009

The blame game...

How many times in life that you usually blame someone else for the things that you have done? How many time is it that you wrongly blame someone or something that in fact you had really wrong? Well, if you does that, you are human afterall. Trust me, it's normal. I think 70-80% of the human usually blame others over the thing you had done. But, in truth, many people does know and understand that blaming people is not really a nice thing to do. Blaming is in fact, someone is hiding from the truth and then try to direct the responsible to another thing or person in order for that person to have an "easy heart".

I recently encountered this problem. I have a friend that like to blame. He never really like to blame himself over the wrong thing that he had done. Like, sometimes, when he didn't attend an appointment with me, he will blame others that make him late, but in fact, he is the one who is late, of course i don't really care bout that coz it doesn't have much affect on me. But later i think it got worse. He started to blame the lecturer which let the class off earlier, which lead to him going to the casino. He did not blame himself for addicted to gambling, but in fact, he blamed the lecturer for letting the class off earlier. Which lead me to write this post. How can one really understand that sometimes we have to blame ourself rather than blaming other things/person?

For me, i have learnt that we have to blame myself rather than blaming on the others about the things that i had done wrong. In fact, there were some accident that sometimes i wanted to blame others, but in the end, i blame myself for doing such mistakes. And, the person did really forgave me for the fault that i caused, because i blamed myself for things that i done and i never really hide from the mistakes. Although it takes alot of courage, I think if everyone is willing to admit for the mistakes, then the world would be in peace (which this won't happens, lol xD). So, i think it is better for us to be ourself. Haha. Be yourself in whatever way you wants.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

University Life~

Life is like a show~ the name of my blog... how much do you doubt this quotes/words? Well, for me, not at all.. I used to doubt it, but this what i have had been through lately in life.
I was enjoying my life, i was given a hope, then i was heartbroken, people has been avoiding me, after that, made more friends, but, few more friends start to hate me, acted in a short movie for presentation, luckily that I am completing my bachelor course soon, but now I felt that I will miss the memories and friends here alot.
It's quite amazing to think about it. All of these things happened in merely 2-3 months of my life here. I wonder how all of this things started after I had quite a busy semester 1 in the start of the year. We didn't really get to socialize much during that time, but now, i think in this semester, I knew more friends than I actually can thought of before I came to Tasmania. Well, it's quite nice and lively to live a UNI LIFE with very much friends. But, too bad, Uni life also is a perfect time for one teenager to find his love or soul mates. I think i failed badly in this section, which sometimes i never knew why. Blame me fat, ugly, poor or whatever, but sometimes, I just can't changed myself for who i am. Too bad then. I will try to change for better but, although the best is not enough, then i am sorry~ haha (This doesn't meant anything at all, don't worry). I will remained who I am for now. I just found out that relationship things is very complicated as usual, i shall stay out of it for now. Haha.
Another 20 days and it is my 1st exam subject, and i didn't really know what the subject really teached although this is web development. But, the subject is mostly on coding, which i don't really like it, but i still have to learn it. Lol. I hope i really be able to pass this subject, in order to graduate this year. If not, then i will have to wait till another year. Pray Hard~ My exam is on: 24th October, 4th November and 7th November. The period between after exam and graduation is the most hardest time for me. It's because all my close friends are leaving back to hometown. I will be missing them really alot. I hope that i will have chance to meet them again in the future soon~
But what's really buzzing my mind is that, I don't know where my future lies after this year. Whether i should apply for work in here, Australia? or going back to Malaysia to find a job. Either way, i will be going back to Malaysia for Chinese New Year, well that's for sure. Maybe someone, or something could give me a hint? Well, for now i need to focus on enjoying my life and also passing the exam in order to graduate this year.
And oh yeah, i have been into acting abit as well lately. Haha. One of the subject that i am taking this semester which is Enterpreneurship and Creativity, need our group to create a inspirational movie that could inspire and lead change on someone. Below is the movie that we came up with. Although we get the last place in the class, we still get 80/100 as overall. Some groups did a great job, but some did get better marks than us without doing much work than us. Haha. But nevertheless, this is the movie that I acted in.

This is all things that i have been through in just a small period of 1 - 2 months. My life certainly have alot of ups and downs. And for now, i really enjoyed my Uni life, even though in previous times, i did regret coming to here. But now, with still 1-2 months to go for my time in Tasmania, I will do what i can to enjoy~

Cradle Mountain (1st - 2nd September)

This is the photo album for Cradle Mountain. We sure have had enjoyment time going there. I think this is the last trip that we will be going. I surely enjoy it although some stuff did bother me, but I still enjoy this trip. These are the pictures of it. Enjoy~