Saturday, January 24, 2009

How much do you really understand a person?

Understanding, in some dictionary can be describe as (IN BRIEF) as "Know and comprehend the nature or meaning of; Perceive (an idea or situation) mentally". So, how much do we understand the word "understand"? For some, understand is just a word that used by ones daily. For me, understand is the word that i always used too. I usually do understand an actions of someone, understand lectures, understand why life will always be life, understand that dreams will always be dreams and many other more. But, the one thing that I would not try to say that i fully understand is a person's heart or brain. It is always hard for me to understand someone without fully knowing the person. But, sometimes, even though we truly know the someone for long, still we might not be understanding him/her as well. Well, that's just the nature of life.

It's always hard for some to understand another, one reason. That is, because the heart of a human can change in split seconds. One minute when we thought that we fully understand a person, another minutes, we might not even know the person. Well, that's a heart of human. Let's take for example, a girl. A girl can have change of heart very fast, and i really meant that, really fast. One minute, she can treat a person very nice, and another minute, she can even hated the person. I recently did encountered this event before. That's one reason i choose this topic to write about today.

Understanding need lots of time to work on, but changing is just split seconds. I once thinks that i truly understand all of my friends and mates. But, nowadays, I felt like i am failing myself or this is just how life goes? Sometimes when we thought that when we fully understands someone, we might be even further from that person. Few months ago, i thought ghost or spirit or even monster is quite scary. But now, what i am most afraid of is the heart of a human. You won't even know if they will betray you, hate you, or even wanted to kill you.

But sometimes, understanding someone also need to depends on the attitude of another person. When we tought that we really understand that person, sometimes we might be wrong. Because, the another person might be very friendly and you are never exposed to someone like this before. So, you might be quite passionate bout the another person. But, in the end, it might be just be a misunderstanding. The other person might be too friendly and you misunderstood that she/he might be interested in you, but it's not the real story behind it. This is one event that i encountered recently. This is another reason i took the chance to write about this. Please share some feedback and comment.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Without You (from Air Supply)

Lately, theres many things going on in my life... But, sometimes i quite hard to tell out. So i would rather sing it out. I have found a song which have a meaningful lyrics that can really show my feeling right now.

Without You

from Air Supply (Karaoke version)

Without You :

No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows, yes it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrows
When I had you there then I let you go
And now it's only fair that I should let you know
What you should know

I can't live, if living is without you
I can't give, I can't give anymore

I can't live, if living is without you
I can't give, I can't give anymore

Thursday, January 22, 2009

What's death or live?

Recently, too much respects, i do encounter this kind of situations. Most of us always thinks that death is a bad thing and we will try and avoid it if can. But what if, someone doesn't stand a chance to choose. Someone who is now in critical condition and it is uncurable anymore. The only way is to try to prolong his/her life.

A relative of me, rather, it is a very close relative to me, is facing such dillema now. And this is one reason for me to understand this nature of questions that can bother most of the people. For long, i have been sad, soul-less, tired, and rarely, crying in the middle of the night for knowing that my someone will be leaving us and I am powerless to do anything but play the waiting game. But, who will understand what it feels like other than that person encounters it in real life before. Before this incident, i had always thought that being sad towards this kind of problem is just common in television/drama and others. But after being exposed to the reality, I, sometimes is quite shocked by the cruel of reality when facing it where i can make a person to be sad, not so confident anymore, and sometimes commit sucide.

Well, after living in this world for long enough, I have finally understand the law of life. There are four things in Chinese teaching that one must go through in life, that is, 娠 (Birth), 老 (Old), 病 (Sick), 死 (Death). For one person to live happily in this world, one must really understand of what life really meant. Like the law of life that i have stated earlier, 娠,老,病,死 is already a common knowledge for all. But who can really understand what it really means. For me, i have just started to find out the truth meaning. For me, the law of life is just for us to understand that many events that can happen in our life. One of my friends have quoted for me a phrase when the time i was very down (sad). I would like to thank her so much that I finally knew how to understand life.

The phrase are;"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it."

Maybe she did copy it from other place, but I didn't know too much. But after listening to this phrase, i did enjoy my life more. But on another hand, what's death then. I haven't heard many people talking bout death. I've heard bout life after death and things like that. Recently, i have already found out that death isn't a horrible thing afterall. "How i hope that i can't wake up in the morning, so that i can relief from all the suffering that i have suffered". This is a phrase i taken from a cancer patients who is quite fed up with the suffering. I would fully hearted agree with the statement. What they are hoping is that life would end earlier so that they doesn't suffer too much by having a natural death.

And i wonder some people just against the 'word-that-some-agree-some-not", which is eutanasia. Hopefully i got the spelling right. Haha. I sometimes felt that suffering in this world is quite unbearable, and times and times again i have knock my head on walls, trying to go on hungry strike, trying to find someone to fight with so that he/she would kill me with a gun. Oh yea, for those who didn't know, I would rather die a great death than waiting to death. That's my own believing. Once i told all my friend before that, i rather die like a tiger rather than life like a coward. For those who knew me alot, they will understands me. But how we die or not is not important here. What i am now writing bout is whether life and death is so important or not.

For me, as long as we lived a quality life, doesn't matter if we are living or we dead. And I would like to stress out here that death isn't as horrible as some might said, but when it will relief suffering, why not death. Quality life is important, so live as you can. And for the someone who made me belief in life again. Thanks.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Christmas Eve Party

Sorry for absent from blogging for the whole December. I was particularly travelling everywhere till i forget that i have a blog still for me to updates. Haha. There are few notable things that i wanted to mention. One of it is the Christmas Eve party at Jim's house. Haha. This is the 1st time that I celebrated Christmas (really! i don't usually celebrate Christmas at all, usually stay home) in someones home. Thanks to Jim, good friend of mine, finally i get to celebrate with his family and friends. There were only few of us going to the party, as we were invited by his parents. The party was even merrier with some of our friends came back from Nilai, Melaka, and Perlis (not to mention overseas, Haha).

The important event of the party were, exchanging gifts. Haha. Jim told us to buy around a RM15 presents for exchange. So, i bought a water ball with snow from S&J. Hehe. And i get a tupperware for an exchange. Haha. The party was full of fun and jokes as Jack, Ping, Jim, Bu, Khoon, Ming, Kim, Wern and Yin is around. Haha. We all enjoyed the party. After the party, we went to Starbucks (e-gate) for a chat and coffee before going home. Although there are some unfortunate things happen, we still enjoyed the night. Haha. Below is some pictures we can share.


The lucky guy who get soy sause from Khoon, Tan Wee Ming.

3 guys who surnamed TAN attend the party. LOL

All of us with presents.

All of us under the christmas tree. Lol.